hm.

 so today's supposed to be another special day for me. well...... i was wishing for something special to happen. tapi yaa gimana kok gua malah ribut sama dia. cuman masalah kecil doang loh

it's only about how much money he'll get disaat dia pindah ke bandung. well, kt punya opini masing2 kan, cuman somehow like he can't accept my opinion gitu. 

and stuffs like this happens a lot. like literally a lot. 

capek? iya sih, cuman gimana? yaa gua udah sayang sm dia, masalah kecil kaya gitu aja gakblh bikin gua down, no matter what. 
gua tau dia orgnya gimana. moody, but amazing. tp gimana ya..... u understand that in some moments u have this "tired of everything" moments, aight? 

ya gua capek aja gitu ya. he's about to move to bandung, leaving me, and all i have in my memory is all the fight we've had these days. it's simply not the kind of memory i wanna have in my mind about him.... 
oh yea u shud know. dia kl bercanda2an suka bls bbm suka pendek2 kan. well... gua gaksuka, cuman i'm not gonna talk about that to him. i don't wanna start an argument 3-( gua juga pengen loh diperhatiin, pengen dia nanya gua sesuatu yg bikin gua senyum lah, yg bikin gua bnr2 special dimata dia. 
cuman kok kayanya kebanyakan gua yg nanyain ke dia "lg apa" dll ataupun gua cerita2 ttg hidup gua misalnya kaya "i was just eating pork dumplings loh" and he responded something like this "oh" or maybe "ok". 
hey u, u shud know that i'm literally tired. exhausted. wishing that u would care more to me, even it's only for a tiny bit, i'll smile. 
well i'm sorry but these days, it's just hard for me to smile when i think of you karena apa yg ada di otak gua ttg lo cuman berantem, lo jwb bbm gue pendek2, lo kurang bs perhatiin gua...yeah and stuffs lah banyak.

capek loh
ya cukup tau aja sih, i got no one to talk to about this so i'm literally putting this in my blog he he 

EXPRESSSSSSSSSS

You guys know what's expressions looks like, eh? you know, the faces and sounds you made for something that makes you happy or.....yea sad.

BUT NO. this time i'm about to show you an expression................................

OF HAPPINESSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!



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GOSH! DOING THIS IS SOOOO AMAZING!!!!!

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doing those stuffs, soothes me HA-_-

well, guess why. National Exam's over, dude!!!! i mean like, YEAH, WATCH DVDS TILL YOU DROP YOUR EYES, EAT TILL YOU PUKE, SLEEP TILL YOU DROP, SHIT TILL YOU DIE, PEE TILL YOU'RE DRUNK. Whatever

all i'm telling you is that freedom is delicious. freedom is awesome. freedom is amazing in a thousand words. BUT IN A GOOD WAY FREEDOM



CHEEEEERRRRSSSSSSSSSSSS

XIIS1

the one class that'll accompany me spend the days in 12th grade.

YUP. this is a very very special class. why? well, i guess some of you know some about it, but yeah since this is my blog, i'm gonna tell you some about this class.

AT FIRST i felt bored for having in the same class with the seminariums. and here goes the BUT. BUT, i turned out wrong. i thought they'll be boring and stuffs. well, it's a big no. seriously, i love my class. i can't simply replace any of them in my heart.

SOOOOO here are the guys and the girls in my class...........

1. Adityo Kresno Nugeroho-->Diro



2. Adrianus Charles Jackson-->Jack

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3. Alexander Glen-->Gentha



4. Anastasia Nirmala-->Tasya



She's on the left side

5. Anicetus Anindito-->Dito



6. Arnoldus Kristianus-->Akri



7. Chandra Ruswidyawan-->Chandra



8. Christoper Samiaji Dewanto-->Dewa



9. Diandra Sumendap-->Diandra



10. Elizabeth Venta-->Venta



11. Gabriella Vania-->Vania



12. Gerard Joshua Kawun-->Gerard



13. Grandis Sheila Tanjung-->Brendy



14. Jennifer Wiraya-->Jennifer



She's on the left side

15. Jhonni Andreas Sinaga-->Jonas



16. Johannes Wahyu-->Yudi



17. Johannes Leonardus Hartantyo-->Tantyo



18. Joseph Marandhika Ardhianto-->Joseph



19. Leon Nouval Lolang-->Leon



20. Maria Benadicta-->Dicta



21. Marsel Dimas-->Dwi



he's on the left side of the pic

22. Natalia Elisa-->Nata



23. Renatta Moeloek-->Rena



24. Putri Anindita-->Nindy



25. Rachael Abigail-->Gabby



26. Robertus Radinal-->Bento

Sorry, no pic-_- didn't find any of his pic

27. Stanislaus Krisha-->Krisha



28. Stevanus Jordy-->Jordy



He's on the very left side

29. Tatjana Dabita-->Dabita



30. Thomas Aquinas Dewaranu-->Denas



31. Yohanes Eureca-->Yoka



32. Yohanes Gema Kumara-->Gema



33. Yosephine Felica Dagna-->Dagna





Yes. There they are. The one who can make me smile, laugh, and having the best times of my life.

Another simple word i can describe about my class? it'll be "Loca" for being crazy. together. :)

High school
. Yes. The most complicated time of your teenage life. I guess. Moments like this, you may need a good friend. Not just a good friend, a friend who listens to you, ready to borrow their shoulder to cry on. High school for me, is a place to play, where I share my most awesome moments with those whom I love. Being 17 is the part where I'm trying to find my self-identity. Searching and searching until you find the best one that describes you.

A FRIEND. Or I may say, friends. These specific humans are meant to help you find your self identity. They either will go out with you and share thoughts that could simply change the way you see things in this world. Me, I have found lots of friends here in my high school. Different kinds of friends helped me to see and feel things in a different way.

BEST MATES. I have found them. To who I can share stories? Them. To whom I can cry? Them. In life, I tried to find good things from each of my mates. And from all that, I try to make conclusions out of it. Well, for some examples:
-->E. EDLYN VANIA. She was like a cloning of me. Why? We both have the same perspective of seeing things in this world. She taught me how to love people, how to respect them, how to not see people from the negative side.
-->GRANDIS SHEILA T. Well I guess, I knew a lot more about lovelife from her. I learned that there's no such thing as a "forever love" in life. Her journey of life takes me to tunnel where I stand there alone, and I know that no one can back you up someday in the future.
-->MARIO P. H. GULTOM. Even though he's a quite type of person, he shares a lot of his life lessons. Being patient and loyal is the best part of his life lessons that I can conclude from him. He gave me thoughts of seeing people from the good side first. He kept reminding me to thank God all the time.
-->RADITYA JOKO B. Him? He's the kind of mate I would keep for years and years of my life. He taught me about how we should enjoy our lives, how we should respect our partner. Sometimes, I think that he's some kind of angel from earth.

But most of all,
-->JURANDRA RADITIA. A beautiful and precious boyfriend that God gave me. I was a very closed person, where I never try to speak up my mind. Him, in my life, is a miracle. He opened up my mind and helped me to control the world in my hands. He thought me about love. A love that I simply will never forget. He's my love-life and also my bestfriend.

See? High school is complicated. When you can't find a good friend for yourself, well it'll be hard to learn more about life. Being me myself is the best potion in the world. I don't care if someone acts as someone they're not. I am me. My self. Dicta. And I know, I am capable of doing things beyond my imagination, thanks to my friends, my best mates, my mom and dad, and a lovely boyfriend ever.





"Yang lain bersandiwara, gue apa adanya"
-A Mild

from this to that, can you imagine?!

IMAGINE!


your best friend becomes your boyfriend :)
i mean like.......wow! unbelievable!

JURANDRA RADITIA :) 10022011

my buddies part 2!

And here are the last 4 names of my buddies!

6. EDLYN VANIA
elin? she's totally fun. we used to hang out together every breaktime. we share stories, we help each other solving problems. i love to play with her cause sh helped me with lots of thing and all i want is to have my friends just like her :)

7. JURANDRA RADITIA
HE'S JUST SOOOO FUNNY! everytime i'm sad or like kinda desperate, he always help me cheering up myself. i trust him and i like sharing stories with him cause i can always count on him and i can always feel comfortable with him and my other buddies. sometimes, we have this "galau" moment and we listen to songs. that's awesome! seriously!

8. JOSEPH MARANDHIKA ARDHIANTO
He's my jazz buddy. me and him often watching jazz every friday night at Teras Kota BSD. we share our favorite jazz bands and we even have our own band with Brendy! he's a very nice guy and he's an easy going kinda guy. having him as one of my best bud is one of the best thing in my life

9. BENEDICTUS JOSEF RADITYA JOKO BRAMANTYO
HE'S A REAAAAL BASS MANIAC! i can always and will forever be counting on him. i tell all of stories to him and he gives me good advices! i like watching him slappin' the bass. he turns into this "monster of bass" everytime he touches the bass or plays it. he's a totally nice guy!

YUP!!! That's them! i love 'em!

my buddies part 1

Hey again blogspot! i'm back again this october! okay, so this post right here is about my best buddies, which they taught me lots and lots of things in my life. each of them have their own unique characteristics. each one of them have the same favorite thing like i do. yeah, too much talking. so let's continue this thaaang!!!

i give you 5 names of my buddies, starting from number:


1.MARIA ANDISA MAYANGSARI
She's a very good friend of mine, i like talking with her. she has this good sense of humor, and she gives me good advices when i told her my stories. she's also a very tough young lady.

2. ANASTASYA BHIROWO
i can always count on her. she's a very very nice and a great friend to share with. she taught me how to be honest to each other, try to say everything we feel rather than letting it stuck in your mind. she's also funny! she's like....totally hilarious

3. GITTA ASTARI
i do know that she's totally nuts HAHA just kidding, Git! we like to share stories. she helps me cheering up my life. she also taught me that this world is fun and enjoy it.

4. GRANDIS SHEILA TANJUNG
I call her Brendy. she's crazy! she's fun! we now have the same lovelife story. we have this funny same hobby, and that is........go to the toilet at school! i mean like...that's totally weird. but it's totally fun ;)

5. ANZELMA KARIN ULI
she's an old pal since....7th grade. we used to have this soccer organization called DFO. I like sharing stories with her because she gives me funny responses. she's also a fun and positive person, and it taught me too


sorry but i'll continue the others later. it's midnight now, so i gotta go to bed. see you guys!